Beads for Coins

Yesterday was Fat Tuesday...........got me to thinking. Any other year I'd have been out there 'earning' my Mardi Gras beads; I have MANY of them. This year on Fat Tuesday I received my one-year sobriety coin.
I kept looking at it and I can hardly believe it myself! Who'd have ever thought I'd go a week without drinking, much less a year!!! Yesterday morning, as I said my prayer, all I could do was cry. I am so grateful that I am sober. I used to hear people in meetings refer to themselves as 'grateful recovering alcoholics' and I'd think, What??? How the hell can you be grateful??? But I am; I get it now.
I've tried my hand at sobriety in the past, so to speak, but I've never managed to make it past a few months, six or seven, I guess. This time I just did what I was told.............that's a miracle in itself! LOL!
I'm no where near the person I want to be; I have sooooo much work to do but now, I at least see hope; I have come to believe that I can be the person I want to be. A year ago I'd have never believed I could be any more than I was right then............and I hated her.
This year hasn't been an easy one. It's been one struggle after another and I have wanted to just throw in the towel on many occasions. I have learned so much about myself tho.............good and bad.
My life is in God's hands...............